The Universe is not in a hurry

I woke up yesterday and did my usual meditation session and as I was sitting there on my pillow, I had a strong, unexplainable feeling of closure. Of ending something. Like closing a chapter. And that feeling came along with such a calm and peaceful state, with full acceptance of the reality as is. I can't really put it into words but it was something like a deep, inner knowing that translated into an "aha, this season of my life has come to end". Without really knowing exactly what it means.

As I opened social media the first piece of info I came across was a post about the Full Moon in Capricorn happening today that is expected to bring a sense of culmination, of releasing old patterns and breaking free of stagnant energies. And that was exactly what I felt. It was not something specifically coming to an end but more generic like a dynamic, a habit.

And then, I realized that this week was just the peak of a few weeks in which I was going after and chasing opportunities that were within my comfort area and in line with my past experiences. Having chats with various head-hunters, applying to similar roles I did in the past, interviewing and browsing job engines etc. And all these doors I was knocking at because of habit, familiarity and comfort closed right in my face. All of them, even the ones I was sure I will breeze through. Despite the fact that deep down I knew they are no longer in line with what I am and are yet another compromise I was willing to settle for, I kept going after these opportunities as I was telling myself that it will "buy me more time". I was and probably still am not fully ready to close this work chapter, yet all the things around me are telling me that's not for you anymore, move on. Bluntly and loudly. And of course, my ego was down on the floor, sobbing with frustration and defeat.

And now with all my familiar working "house of cards" falling, I just have to trust God/the Universe and nothing else. I do not need to know what else, I do not need to figure it out myself, I do not need to be on my own and solve the puzzle. Because this time, I truly know I am not on my own.

A quote I read recently and that I love is saying: "The Universe is not in a hurry. You are. It's why you are anxious and depressed. Let go, trust & BE" (Unknown). With this in mind, I am going to keep practicing my patience while embracing a new fold and creating alignment within.